TTFT - HIGH SCHOOL

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Portrait of the Authoress As A High School Freshman

I was looking at old pictures from high school the other day (which seems like it happened to a different person, honestly) and decided the best way to express my feelings about that time in my life would be with a playlist. I had to go over ten tracks, even over twenty; I wanted it to be all songs that REMINDED me, not necessarily tracks that I personally liked, during my first two years of HS (before I started listening to the kind of music I do now). The reason this playlist is so varied is because my friends were all so different. My high school boyfriend was obsessed with nu-metal and played old school rap every morning in his car on the way to school. Of my two best friends, one was a burgeoning street punk with bleached blonde porcupine spikes and the other was a zinester who loved Radiohead and brit pop. A majority of the rest of my friends were into pop punk and ska, and all my sad poetess internet friends loved Tori and Ani. In addition, I played a LOT of Nirvana and similarly Seattle-y/riot grrlish bands when I was home. Strangely, they don't sound odd to me thrown all together here- is that weird?

I really wish Project Playlist had "Let's Go Bowling" by the band Let's Go Bowling, since I'm not sure there's any song that reminds me more of my freshman year of high school than that one.


14 y/o me w/ ultra hip dark brown lipstick, friend

TTFT - Wonderland Edition

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

I tried to pick tracks this week that sort of reflect how I've been feeling this past week. Things are just getting worse and worse with my grandmother, and I'm trying so hard to balance all that stress, responsibility and worry with also being a !!!! future mom. I have good days and I have bad days, just like my grandmother does. Today is quickly shaping up to be not so great a day, so as usual I gave myself some self therapy through mixing. What I ended up getting was ridiculously personal, and I hope that you like it.

"My Teacher Died" by Diane Cluck is one of my favorite songs, probably because it reminds me of my grandfather. I feel like so much changed for me after he died; mentally I felt lost for a long time. I try to remind myself that if *I* felt lost after his death, my grandmother must be in a completely different orbit now. I followed that up with "The New Sane Scramble" (if you can find the album version of this song, you should- it's much better) because I feel like that song (the tone, the lyrics) is where my grandmother is right now in her mind. Her dementia has taken her over so completely ; every day for her is a scramble of sadness and paranoia. The rest of the songs all follow that same theme- strange, strained, looking for a way home. There's a trippy overall feel to the entire playlist because I feel like living in this house with her is a little like living in Wonderland- there is no solid reality.

Leave it to me, as always, to over think the feelings behind everything- at the very least my predictability must be comforting to some of you, yes?

TT4T - Total Mush addition

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

My ten tracks today are all entirely for Davey. <3

I love you, baby daddy!